Thursday, April 24, 2003 its almost friday i'm still a little under the weather. i've gotta buckle down this weekend because i've got a 15 page paper due next week and i figure now is a good a time as any to get started. which is why i am on the internet wasting the time away. i forgot to talk about bles & kat's bday party on saturday. there are pics on tilllate.com. i'm on the second page with james.... i'm so fogedy old because i couldnt last past 2. there are also pics of bles, janelle, mags and laura. i had a half of one drink and i realized, once again, that i never know what to order when i go out to these types of places. this week went by fast, and if i think about it, so did this month. it feels like only yesterday i was anticipating bles' arrival, and now she's gone. *sigh* 7:12 PM

Monday, April 21, 2003 fucking rocks once upon a time, there was a brand spanking new windshield, free of dirt and grime. everyday the windshield would look at itself and marvel on how shiny and brand new it was. then one day while skipping on the road, a mean, nasty old rock threw itself against the nice, pretty windshield causing a crack to form on the lower half of the windshield--a little unslightly, but still manageable. if you didnt look hard enough, windshield was still pretty and neat. AND THEN THE NEXT DAY THE STUPID TRUCK ON I-78 DECIDES TO KICK UP 20 BILLION LITTLE ROCKS ONTO POOR WINDSHIELD WHICH JUST LOOKS FUCKED UP NOW AND I AM SO MAD BECAUSE THAT WAS JUST THE BEGINNING OF MY HORRIBLE DAY. besides the massive diarrhea that decided to errupt through my system at 3am this morning, i could not fall back asleep at 5am, si i decided to just get ready for the day. of course, at 830 my body realizes what an ass it is for waking up so damn early and decides that it is once again sleepy. not before being plagued with the bladder of mt. vesuvius. my throat is all jacked up because i caught something on friday and have been hacking up a storm ever since. stupid fucking rocks. 7:39 PM

Friday, April 18, 2003 friday five (modified) 1. this was a hectic week. michelle left sunday, julia born tuesday, kat's birthday wednesday, bles arrived thursday, bles' birthday/bles & kat's birthday dinner tonight, i got my cube today. oh, and tomorrow we are celebrating their birthdays again. 2. among other decorations, i brought my new fern, hobbes II. 3. my cube is cute. and small. i already hung up pictures of everyone, put my plant in the corner, hung up a couple of posters, put all the papers in their proper places, set up my voicemail, etc., etc. i would have taken a picture of it, but i forgot to bring the digital camera to work. maybe monday. i'm still thinking of other things that i can bring in on monday to make it look even better. i don't want to have a bare looking thing that i have to sit in day after day. because of this i have certain photographs that i took matted and taped to the wall for my viewing pleasure. i have the picture of the sky, a picture of the grass and trees at central park, and a picture of the beach. so i kind of have a scenic window. 4. today i woke up at 615 and instead of hitting snooze on my alarm, i shut it off completely and then proceeded to go back to sleep only to wake up in a frantic panic because it was 715 and i was already supposed to be out the door. i got to work on time, though. but no coffee. boo. 5. since this is a holiday weekend, work decided to let everyone out early at 300, which is why i am blogging so early. good because i get to go home and relax. bad because i wanted to stay and decorate my cube. oh well. i have to shower now but there is all these wet underwear hanging in the bathroom. what to do, what to do? 4:13 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2003 hey little lady julia was born yesterday at 2:49 pm -- 6 pounds, 12 ounces. brianna was so cute. as we sat there waiting for the nurse to bring her little sister back from the nursery, she kept singing, "where's my sister, where's my sister, where's my sister?" and when i took her to the nursery to watch from behind the glass, she started singing, "there's my sister, there's my sister, there's my sister." today i packed my box of crap to bring to work on friday -- i went to home depot and bought two plants for my cube. i still miss hobbes, my little fern from sophmore year at rutgers. he was a good little plant, but my green thumb was lacking and it died of starvation. i'm feeling kind of blah. i think its just cause i need too sleep. 9:48 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2003 today is not a good day i woke up with a headache that hasnt gone away yet, and even after eating, i was still hungry. it was a beautiful day outside, but my head hurt too much to be out in the sun for too long and i felt grumpy all day. michelle left, and that just sucks. i watched her drive off into the sunset, helpless to keep her hostage her room. all i can do is be happy and supportive for my other best friend that is now residing in another state. i have been staring at my nails all day because they are just way too long and the right middle finger is chipped and that has bothered me all day. kat called for boy advice which i could not give because i know nothing about the questions she was asking me and i would feel really guilty trying to give advice to someone about things i am clueless about. i feel dirty and grumpy and sleepy and if i knew any of the other seven dwarves' names, i would probably be them too. right now, all i want to do is sleep but i still have a shit load of homework i have to get done before tuesday. can i just skip class and be done with this already? 7:49 PM

Friday, April 11, 2003 drained i tried to do a friday five, but as music is not my forte, i decided to forgo the exercise entirely. i've got a lingering headache from this afternoon. i've got no money and the bank is closed and my mac card is still broken, so goes the story of my life. this week was a little draining...there was so much information to be taken in and we were warned that next week was going to be worse, considering it is our last week in training mode and they have to wrap up everything else they taught us. but next week is going to be a trip. michelle is off and then joyce is having julia on tuesday and then kat's birthday is on wednesday and then bles is coming on thursday and her birthday is on friday and bles and kat's birthday dinner is on friday and i get my cube on friday and bles and kat's birthday party is on saturday and then sunday i can breathe again. "You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the U.S. of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the three most powerful men in America are named 'Bush', 'Dick', and 'Colon'. Need I say more?" -Chris Rock 6:06 PM

Wednesday, April 09, 2003 time is ticking yesterday i was a half an hour late for work because of a car accident and a stalled car on the extension bridge. weather has really taken a toll on me. i just realized how crazy april is going to be. people leaving, people coming, exams, getting out of training and a 15 page paper. *sigh* there's not enough coffee for this. 10:32 PM

Tuesday, April 08, 2003 april snowstorms showers bring may flowers normally i would be sleeping now, but i took a nap at 5:30 and woke up at 9:30, so i don't know how this is going to work. i had a horrible time trying to sleep last night, not getting to bed until after 1am. and then i woke up at 4am and then again at 7am, all the while thinking about demons because of some discovery channel special that michelle made me watch this weekend. damn you. because of the snow, work let us out early today. whoo-hoo. we got out at 130 and i was stuck on the main road in new providence for one hour. normally a 45 minute commute took me 2 hours. so for that hour that i was parked on central ave., i decided to clean the interior of my car using all the leftover dunkin donuts napkins i had in my glove compartment and the snow that was piling up on my window. multi-tasking is very constructive. i was wondering if i would look stupid wearing sunglasses in a snowstorm. white is reflective and very harsh on my eyes. at one point, i was cleaning the side panel of the door by the switch that opens my gas tank and trunk and accidently pressed my trunk and so i had to close it while knee deep in traffic. didnt really matter since i wasnt moving. i just finished my paper and now i have to go deconstruct a poem so ciao til later. i was hoping that there would be a chance class would be cancelled tomorrow, but i'm just asking for way too much. 12:37 AM

Friday, April 04, 2003 friday five 1. How many houses/apartments have you lived in throughout your life? three houses, two dorms and two apartments. currently living at two residences...with two of everything in tow. 2. Which was your favorite and why? hamilton was my first experience of living with seven other people and that was a mad house, but living with michelle at sunrise was absolutely hysterical. 3. Do you find moving house more exciting or stressful? Why? exciting because its something new to decorate. and its your own space. 4. What's more important, location or price? price because i have no money. 5. What features does your dream house have (pool, spa bath, big yard, etc.)? dream house would be in the city with a greenhouse like in greencard with andy macdowell (sp?) and an outdoor terrace of some sort. high ceilings, wood floor, white walls, lots of light are necessary. i like mel gibson's terrace in what women want...it must have two or more bedrooms, two or more baths, a room to convert into a library/office space, living room, kitchen with an island, those metal fridges, and lots of closet space. ooh, or the terrace at the apartment that ashley judd and greg kinnear were looking at in 'someone like you.' yes, that better than mel's apartment. i would want a terrace that you could walk into. oh, or something like meg ryan's apartment in kate and leopold where they had dinner on the top of the apartment building. i would like access to the top of a building like that where i can string lights all over the place and put candles on tables and just hang out there on summer evenings drinking margaritas and dancing under the moonlight. ooh, but my dream apartment for now would probably look very close to meg ryan's apartment in 'you've got mail.' that was a cute apartment. speaking of which, the movie kate and leopold inspired my fantasy of where i want to be when i get proposed to. i've had several discussions about this with close friends. if i ever get the privledge of getting proposed to, i would like to be on top of a building that is surrounded by big city buildings, much like the scene in the movie where hugh jackman (ooh, he's hot) surprises meg ryan with dinner. anyhoo, it should be a cloudless spring evening with lights strung up all over the place and candles and wine and music and all those other romantic miscellaneous details. oh, and i heard colin farrell on the radio this morning and he sounds hot. i think we are supposed to see him tonight in phonebooth, but we havent had much luck watching movies the past couple of weeks. its always my fault too. because i sit at home, like right now, and do things to procrastinate getting ready when i should already be there so that we can watch an earlier movie because i cannot stay up past 11. tomorrow i must run many errands that i have put off for the past couple of weeks. for instance, i have been slowly but steadily withdrawing money from my bank account, but i have yet to deposit my check. hmm, i wonder if i have any money left in there. i have no mac card because the magnetic strip has been tampered with for the fortieth time, so i must apply for yet another one. its a pain in the ass to have to go to the bank to withdraw money and i really dont know why i waited so damn long. i have to get thirteen pieces of clothes drycleaned. this might explain the lack of clothes i have to wear to work and why i am constantly buying new clothes. i have 4 pairs of pants to hem. why i keep doing this remains a mystery. wish me luck on these errands, because probably none of them will get done, which is sad because they all need to get done as soon as possible. blech. 6:58 PM

Thursday, April 03, 2003 please put your pencils down i finally found my pants! yippe doo. my last resort was the gap at newport, and thankfully, they had them. i set my alarm for six today in the hopes of getting up to shower, but to no avail. i stared at my clock and turned on the heater (it was freezing!) and then took a ten minute snooze while the room warmed up. well, fifty minutes later, i finally decide to get up and shower sans shampoo and presto, i'm out the door by 7:20. 5 minutes off schedule, but i compensated by speeding down the highway. they gave us another test today and i am beginning to feel like i'm back in school. these tests are so nerve racking. honestly, i become more and more paranoid as the minutes pass me by. they had a volunteer fair at work today and i have always been interested in doing literacy volunteer work or habitats for humanity and wouldnt you know it, they were there. so i signed the volunteer sheet and felt a little better about my self. nothing much interesting happened. just the usual daily routine. so now i must unwind and attempt to do homework while i watch tv. 6:54 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2003 my feet hurt! i got through april fools pretty much unscathed but for one prank played on the radio. everyday i wake up at 6am to shower and get ready for work, unless i am lazy or have taken a shower the night before...then i get up at 640. i'm wondering whether those extra 40 minutes make a difference. and now with daylight savings time around the corner, i am doubly screwed because i just adjusted this volatile sleeping schedule of mine! i lose another precious hour of sleep. i did get to go to the mall today, but i found nothing. and i was walking around in the most uncomfortable boots. i was supposed to go home and change, but i didn't think i was going to be at the mall for very long. i ended up going to two malls and found nothing that i was looking for. are there no comfortable shoes that are not sneakers. during the day, i dont really have to worry about the uncomfortable shoes because i am sitting except for the time i walk to and from the car in the morning, the 15 minutes i take to walk downstairs during my break and, if i'm feeling especially ambitious, walking upstairs and then again for lunch and my other break at two thirty. at four thirty, i fly out the door so if you never hear from me again, its because i have tripped down four flights of steps. now i must soak my feet in a warm bath and get ready for tomorrow. 8:50 PM