i have measured out my life with coffee spoons.

Sunday, April 18, 2004

useless purchases

two weeks ago i came to the conclusion that electronic planners were just not for me. i need to write things down on actual paper and i receive immense satisfaction from actually crossing out something completed on my to do list (instead of just deleting it). in lieu of this, i purchased a planner from staples. ok, i admit, it was an impulse buy. i was actually there to buy legal sized filing folders and just happened to stroll by the planners aisle and decided to peruse through the section a little longer than i should have. but in my defense, james made a bigger impulse buy and bought himself a leather chair. so there.

anyhoo, i think i spent over an hour looking at the variety of planners displayed. and with each and everyone, there were little things that bothered me. i dont like planners with the zippers that enclose the entire planner. makes easy access not so easy. some were too bulky. others had too much flash. some were to childish. some were way to business-ey. i settled on a plain black planner with a zipper (tsk). white paper, black font...your basic planner.

fast forward to two weeks (friday) when i discover that i need to buy more planner paper for my daily section. i head over to target with michelle to pick up a variety of items (some of which i just wont mention -- suffice to say, conversations in the feminine products aisle would have been very interesting for any old stranger who happened to pass by). i head over to staples first to get my refillable paper only to find they have absolutely no selection. then we head over to target where i discover they dont have the refillable paper that i need....but they did have a very pretty selection of planners to choose from.

the end.

its cute. its green. its got a one button front clasp (no zippers). its got pretty pink, blue, green and yellow paper that is color coordinated to months. the font is prettier. and i was able to get a considerable amount of reading done on friday AND i went to the library for 6 hours on saturday to finish my research which was all due to the organizational genius of my pretty, new planner.

ok, so maybe it wasnt. whatever. its cute, dammit.

1:40 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2004
friday five

1. What do you do for a living?
i'm an editor at a legal publishing company. i sit in my little cube all day and edit print and online legal text. when no one is looking, i'm doing homework for school. a couple of times i've fallen asleep while working.

2. What do you like most about your job?
hmm. that i'm in the field that i want to be...and not what's been planned out for me or expected of me. i get to read all day, and though it may not be the most exciting thing, i enjoy it.

3. What do you like least about your job?
its a step in the right direction, but i'm not at the end of the road yet. i'd like more challenge. lets just leave it at that.

4. When you have a bad day at work it's usually because _____...
i woke up too late to get coffee and i'm tired as hell and now its 1pm on wednesday and i still havent finished my paper that's due at 5:30 and i've only worked five proofs for the day. either that or its 6 and for some reason, i'm still at work.

5. What other career(s) are you interested in?
i'd love to do travel writing/photography. that would be my dream job. i'd love to edit children's books. although i am not very good with children, i do have a tasteful sense of children's literature.
i think that if i could start all over again, i would have done physical therapy. i dont know why, but something tells me i would have been good at it. but apparently i'm good with the words, so i guess for now, i'll stick with it.

12:21 AM

Friday, April 09, 2004
probably not a good sign

after work i was greeted with a for sale sign on the porch of the building where i rent out the top apartment. this is questionable.

my throat feels weird.

my whole body just feels sick.

people that were supposed to call havent called yet. m. says i shouldnt worry yet. i've already started too.

i had an anxiety "episode" during class this past wednesday.

i've had back pain for the past week that have only increased in intensity with every passing day.

*sigh*

rough week. i've got to start studying for finals already. there's never enough time, jessie spano.

11:57 PM

Monday, April 05, 2004
in need of some fiber

due to some horrific food that i consumed yesterday, i was unable to make it to work this morning. every half hour i was awoken with serious stomach pains and strange grumbling noises that came deep within the void of my intestines. this went on from 3am til 6am which is about the time i was supposed to get up and get ready for work.

that did not happen.

phoebe's better now. $1000 dollars later.

shit, i would be too.

i'm craving something sweet. coffee. yum. wasnt allowed my daily fix this morning. i'm wondering whether there's a pattern starting with my stomach pains and if i should be worrying and what not. this happened on saturday night as well. or maybe i should start keeping a journal of the things that i'm eating in order to nip this thing in the bud.

at least i can see the daylight for a little longer after i get out of work. i'm just looking forward to the end of this month and the end of class and a summer free of stress and papers and procrastinating.

6:32 PM

Saturday, April 03, 2004
i appreciate the pink font

this was an email that i sent to m. yesterday at work:

I woke up at 7:24 like it was 6:24. full well knowing that in order to be at work with a cup of dunkin donuts at 8am I have to leave my block no later than 7:15am. strolling around the kitchen brushing my teeth and looking out the window like i had the time to daydream.

drove through traffic like a normal person and i actually got to n.p. by 8:02. I could have gotten into the building by 8:15 (the maximum amount of time to be late without it actually counting to make up for it) but I decided that coffee was more important than time and detoured off the main road and headed for dunkin donuts.

now its nine and i still havent completey wiped the sleepiness from my eyes. i'm half here and half at home still sleeping in my 350 thread count sheets that feel so darn good.

my ground beef last night came out a little more oily than i expected. and it was missing something. all my cooking is missing something. but i compensated with hot sauce and it was all better. i wont be saying that when the ulcers start popping up in a month or so.

i did very productive things last night. i tried to read but that got boring really quick so instead i calculated what i owed in rent (minus the pse&g and verizon bill) and then i balanced my checkbook. i updated my planner and watched the apprentice.

i'm here wishing i bought a donut which is strange because i really dont like donuts very much. there was a lady passing around donuts this morning and i think that's what got me craving one.

but for lunch i'm having fish tacos (yum.....?????) dont eat meat today.

hope your day is going well.

my day has gotten considerably worse since then.

rushing to micky d's this morning, like the fat ass that i am, i opted to underestimate how raised the manholes were on lembeck and decided that running over them at the speed that i was would be no problem.

ten minutes later i'm standing over my engine wondering why the hell the oil light is blinking like mad and oil is dripping profusely from under the car.

forty minutes later i'm saying goodbye to phoebe who is rolling away on a flatbed headed towards riverside.

i'm carless.

this sucks.

12:28 PM