mc - day 2 day 2 went great. i woke up feeling a little groggy, but that's not new. i had my tea and my juice and actually felt energized. totally different from the day before. i went shopping at woodbridge, menlo and watched rent. the only uncomfortable part was the cramps...and then having to do #2 in a public bathroom. i had to lug around my drink, which wasnt so bad, but smelling all the food around me was a little sad. i passed by a sbarro buffet and everything looked and smelled so good...but i was a little preoccupied, having to go to the bathroom and all. surprisingly, i dont miss coffee that much. maybe i'll feel differently tomorrow, when i'm at work. while we were watching rent, people all around me were eating popcorn and nachos, and normally that would make me want some too, but i didn't have a craving for it yesterday. now i'm into day 3 and my body feels like it was hit by a mack truck. i'm about to take my morning tea and then my drink and hopefully i'll feel better. there are moments in the day that i think to myself, "how am i going to get through 10 days of this?" but i'm counting on my own willpower to get me through it. day by day. 12:43 PM

Friday, November 25, 2005 mc - day 1 i've officially started the fast. strange...i thought today would be cake, but its definitely been challenging. i took my tea last night and this morning and drank 4 glasses so far today. mostly, i've been tired. not hungry, but i know my stomach is empty. i can feel it. i dont know if i'm comforted by that fact or scared by it. i've already lost 4 pounds of water weight/crap weight. i am quite relieved at the number of bowel movements i've had so far. apparently i've been quite backed-up, so my intestines are emptying out a considerable amount. the drink itself isnt so bad. i think i put a little too much cayenne pepper in the last batch, but otherwise, it tastes ok. i think it would taste alot better with less cayenne pepper. i already miss chewing. i can't seem to watch any shows that have to do with cooking, or i really start to crave something solid to eat. if its already so tough now, i don't know how i'm going to last for the next nine days. they say the hump is 4 days, so i'm going to have to try to get through this weekend somehow. just have to focus on the positive and take it day by day. wish me luck. 10:22 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005 dunzo my car is officially dying. 100,000+ miles in the span of 6 years and its costing me more in service and repairs than its actually worth. ask me how i've managed to put on that many miles in such a short span of time -- i will not be able to answer that question. i've never driven cross-country in my car. the farthest i've been is maine and back. i'm in the process of writing a very angry letter to the vw headquarters. i'm upset because i love my car; i'm just disappointed because its so unreliable. i don't drive like a maniac. i took pretty good care of my car, i think. it just constantly wanted to fire up that check engine light everytime i hit a bump or pressed on the accelerator. vw, answer this...if i've never used the airbags (thankfully) and the airbag light goes off, why the hell should i pay to fix it? technically i've never used the damn thing. technically its your wrongdoing because you should put airbags that are functional, not ones that sit in a car unused for 5 years and then suddenly decide to stop working just because they have never been deployed. airbag module my ass. things like brake pads, engine parts that i use to make the car go from point a to b...i believe in paying for that...because i've used it. but if my fuel indicator isnt working anymore, is it my fault because i put too much gas in my car over a 6 year period and it can't work properly anymore? bullshit. things like that should be the responsibility of the car manufacturer. and if the shit breaks down, they should be liable for costs. i went to the dealership 5 or 6 times to get a check engine light fixed, and each time, the price to fix the mysterious problems (which to this day i remain clueless) rose exponentially. supposedly it was the ignition wires. on the day they actually fixed it, my water pump decides to die. conspiracy....i tell you. its a conspiracy. now my car is having trouble starting and the f'ing check engine light went off again. i'm about to drive this car into the river and be done with it. 6:25 PM